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Joined: January 20th, 2015, 8:53 pm Posts: 260 Medals: 1 Has thanked: 86 times Been thanked: 419 times
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Hello to those of AOTSKINS- it's been quite a while, has it not? Sadly, I come bearing news that I could no longer take.
I've written this post a million and one times. I've finished it off as gracefully as I could, but I never posted it out of fear for reactions. I never posted it at all, until now. As some may know, I've always been interested in the development of the Attack on Titan Tribute Game, and I've always been mindful of those playing it. My starting point was in May of 2014, when I had gotten my first computer. I was so new to the world, and everything was very shocking, to say the least, when I stumbled upon this game.
I am a very shy and quiet person- I hardly ever face someone in real life, or I would get a nosebleed. My social anxiety is a very huge role in my life, and it's something I face continuously. I also have a large list of other problems, which includes severe depression, and that mixed in with an online community, so full of people who don't hesitate to speak out, is not a fantastic mix.
Let me just start off by saying, the Attack on Titan Tribute Game community that we started off was beautiful. Those players were absolutely wonderful, and they all meant the world to me- everyone was happy, and everyone was having fun. That combined with my problems, has turned me into the person I am today, and I'm very proud that it's helped me with my numerous problems. The Attack on Titan Tribute Game community we have now, is a whole different story. I'm no longer indebted to stay in this community anymore, and apparently, a large list of other members have opted to take that path as well. I've left this game once before, only to come back later in the future-I started off as an Artist on the first RC Mod client to be released- my first skin was a very bad edit of the normal skins in-game, and a few other skins I'd found online, for personal use. With time, I've met some really wonderful people here. I'd like to list those people here, in tribute to them.Legendssg, for being one of the most trustworthy and happy people on this site. You have no idea how much you've inspired me to always have a smile on my face.DocterToTheMan, for being one of my very first friends on this site. You were one of the few people who helped me come out of my shy and nervous state to be able to talk to others.Tyxant, for being my brother artist on this site when I first started. You always commented on my stuff all the time, and even made some of your own versions. This made me more confident in what I do.TheMikarin, for being what I would say a big sister to me during the time I made skins. You've always inspired me to do my best no matter what, and though we might not have spoken that much, the unspoken appreciation I had for you had never died out.RicoZoe, for being one of my favourite people on the site. You've always made me smile when I talk to you, and you're always so nice to speak to, and so fun to play this game with.Serenity, aka, Wyvern, for being another of my first friends on this site. You're like my sister to me, and I ran into you multiple times until we came into contact. I adore your art, and I can't help but smile when I talk to you.Kano, WilliamWhite, and Halloween, for being wonderful people to speak to, and have a nice time with. You all do a great job with the site. ^^Griffinbound and Meecube, for putting me to work on one of the biggest challenges in my skinning history. I am honoured to have worked to texture the cannon for you both, and I appreciate you both helping me. It stands in my heart as one of my favourite skins I'd ever made.LOCKjaw, for being a very important influence on my art, and being a very nice person to talk to- you've reassured me of many things that I, otherwise, would have been too nervous about.TheIceFox, for being a wonderful support to me, and hopefully for all my life. MarcoTitan, for being one of the most trustworthy friends I could ever leave my dignity to, and the one to have inspired me to do art in the first place. Kyouma, for being the one who helped me realise that my choices all have purpose.
And, finally-
Thank you, AOTSKINS, for forming me into an artist who I thought I would never be. I've always been too timid to think about what art I could and couldn't do, and this put me on a good road to successfully becoming an artist. So, from me to any and all who read this-
Thank you for reading this. I hope you have a lovely day, stay safe, take care, and.. I hope you've enjoyed. ^^ I certainly did enjoy making skins the entire time I was on this site. To any skin makers or Attack on Titan Tribute Game players, I wish you all luck on everything you do, be it related to Attack on Titan or not, all of you deserve happiness, and to those who do not deserve it, I still wish you find it in the future.
These words come from the heart, and they are my own. I can only hope they mean something to someone after I've left here for good. With as much as I can take in health, skinning takes a very large amount of determination, and with how this game is going, I won't be able to continue my works. I wish the best for everyone reading this, and I hope everyone has a lovely day.
And, with that.. Here's to you, AOTSKINS, all of the artists, all of the players, the members, the family, the friends, the rivals and the teams alike. May your future be bright and full of happiness.
I wish you all well.
_________________ -And now I try again my hand, at taming ghosts and counting sand. I'll meet you on the other side, but hey- It's one in a million.
Entirely retired. I wish you all well.
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